me, myself & I

Much love, 

Tira.

Moved ON

I'm back with my strength. No more YOU. I'm gonna move on! Yesss! I will. :)

I FEEL SOO AWESOME NOW!!!!

Much love, 

Tira.

Wanita Biasa

Krisdayanti - Aku wanita biasa

Much love, 

Tira.

truth

renung - renungkan lah :)

Much love,
Tira.

2 Different Tears - Wonder girls

Gave me two different tears after all these years
Tears of joy, tears of pain, like sunshine and rain
So I hate you, so I love you
So I hate you, so I love you

I'm tryna figure out how to move on with my life without you by my side
Waking up with teary eyes, I can't do this no more, gotta erase you now

So I think of all the pain you've given me
Try to look at all the damage you've done to me
No matter how hard I try, I just can't figure out why
I keep thinking 'bout how sweet you used to be

Gave me two different tears after all these years
Tears of joy, tears of pain, like sunshine and rain
So I hate you, but the love you gave me was so so good
So I love you, but the pain you gave me was so so bad

I'm crying over you still, what does this mean, do I still want you back in my life
After all these painful things you've done to me, why is it so hard to realize

So I think of all the pain you've given me
Try to look at all the damage you've done to me
But the harder that I fight, you come closer in my sight
And I'm thinking of how sweet it could have been, oh no

Gave me two different tears after all these years
Tears of joy, tears of pain, like sunshine and rain
So I hate you, but the love you gave me was so so good
So I love you, but the pain you gave me was so so bad

Why do I still feel this way when I know there's nothing left to say
Should you leave, but I loved you in the first place, wanna erase you without a trace
Try to tell myself that I need to hate you with the pain that you put me through
But, ah, that's the reason why I still miss you, no matter how hard I try

Gave me two different tears after all these years
Tears of joy, tears of pain, like sunshine and rain
So I hate you, but the love you gave me was so so good
So I love you, but the pain you gave me was so so bad

Gave me two different tears after all these years
Tears of joy, tears of pain, like sunshine and rain
So I hate you, but the love you gave me was so so good
So I love you, but the pain you gave me was so so bad

Much love,
Tira.

Strong

Jika benar-benar ini yang U nak, okay. I accept. I akan cuba hidup bahagia tanpa U. Lepas ni I tak kan ambik tau dah pasal U. If that girl boleh bagi U kebahagian, then bagus la. Sebab if dengan bf die sendiri pun die boleh gunakan U untuk jadi alasan break, next time mungkin U pun akan terkena kan? Jangan terlalu percaya dengan kawan-kawan U cakap tu. Banyak fitnah dari betul apa yang dorg cakap pasal I. Dorg pernah suruh I hati-hati dengan U. Tp i ignore sebab I believe in U. If relationship tak ada saling percaya - mempercayai, macam mana nak okay kan?So, good luck in the future my beloved EX. Uhhhm nampaknya I kena tukar number lagi sekali la kan? =.='

Melly Goeslow - Gantung

Much love,

Tira.

Baby

Niat hati nak tengok movie dekat dalam external hard disk. Sekali bukak, nampak note from HIM. WHY LA!!! :(

this is the last note he gave me before we break up.

syg.. i love u so much syg :)

syg.. i miss u so much syg :)

syg.. i want u so much syg :)

syg.. i need u so much syg :)

everytime u are far away from me,

i feel so lonely.

everytime u sleep,

i will be there beside u and hug u.

everytime u cry,

im here to hug and cry with u.

everytime u smile,

i feel i am the most happy man in the world.

everytime u hug me,

i feel that my heart are close to ur heart.

everytime u hold my hand,

i feel closer to u.

everytime u kiss me,

i feel so in love with u.

everytime u lay down on my shoulder,

i will hug u and wont let it go.

everytime i miss u,

i will cry.

everytime i call u,

i love to hear ur voice.

everytime i text u,

i wish u were with me now.

everytime we out on a date,

i love to hold ur hand.

i love to hug with my arm,

i love to kiss u in the lips.

u are so special to me.

i cant live without u.

u are the one i want.

i do anything for u.

u are one in a milion.

why i do it?

is because i miss u,

is because i want u,

is because i need u,

is because i love u syg..

p/s : okay stop meroyan. moved on Tira. T_T 

Much love, 

Tira.

My Birthday

Today is my birthday. But i'm not happy. BYE.

Mother - Daughter time

I had a short conversation with my mum last night. I keep hiding my feeling. I think my mum knows better about this.

Mak : Apasal mak tengok lately macam ada problem? Gaduh dgn sape2 ke? Byk keje? Tengok kamu makin teruk sakit.
Me : Eh takde la. Anyah okay je. *fake smile*
Mum : Mak tau sebab apa. If kamu still sayang die, bgtau je la. Mak tau kamu dah break dengan die.
Me : T_T *can't hide my feeling anymore*
Mak : Sabar. Ada jodoh, ada la korang.
Me : Kalau takde jodoh ktorg mak, mak tolong la cari siapa2 untuk anyah. Anyah dah tak ada perasaan nak cari bf baru dah. Dah tertutup dah. Macam2 dah jadi. If die jumpe perempuan lagi bagus dari anyah, bagus la.
Mak : Sabar byk2. Cuba berbincang ke.
Me : Entah la mak. Salah orang, die susah nak maafkan. Tapi salah die, orang selalu maafkan, bagi peluang. Taktau nak cakap camne. :( Takpe la mak. Redha je la. If tak jumpe siapa2, anyah tak payah kawin pun takpe. Amik anak angkat boleh kan mak? Boleh jaga mak & abah.
Mak : T_T *nangis with me*
Me : * terus masuk bilik.

Much love,
Tira. 

A.H

This the best day of my life, I'm finally can hear your voice. I miss this voice for the past 4 months.

 I MISS YOU SO MUCH :'(

ur favourite song :)

p/s : Thanks for the wish. I love you. 

Much love, 

Tira.

Bangkok Trip

Masa sedang menaip blog ni, me masih rasa sangat - sangat penat. Penat berjalan. But whatever it is, enjoy reading this entry k :)

4/2/2012
Malam sebelum pergi memang tak boleh tidur. Rasa tak sedap hati sangat-sangat sebab ni first time pergi luar dari Malaysia. First time naik FLIGHT!! Lepas tu pergi pulak bukan dengan family tapi dengan kawan - kawan 1 ofis. Macam-macam perasaan ada, takut la, happy, excited, sakit perut pun ada, nak muntah pun ada. Haih. Esok sampai tempat kerja macam biasa. Memang tak ada mood nak buat kerja sebab dalam kepala memang fikir nak berjalan je. Ngeh3. :p

Tepat pukul 1 semua dah get ready untuk pergi Penang. Dari sana akan ada van untuk bawa kami pergi Hatyai. Tapi disebabkan ada kawan - kawan yang pergi makan dulu, so kami bertolak agak lambat la. Dalam kul 2 lebih. Sampai Penang dalam pukul 3 lebih, kami singgah pergi makan laksa. Memang terbaik la laksa penang. Sedap gila :p Hehe. Lepas tu kami terus pergi Queensbay Mall untuk tunggu van kat sana. Besar gila shopping complex tu, kan best kalau ada kt Ipoh :( Sob3.

Van pun sampai dalam kul 5 lebih lepas tu singgah imegresen, cop sana sini, bla bla , then sampai la hotel dalam kul 7. (waktu Malaysia 8.00pm). Pemandu van tu drive kereta macam orang gila okay! Bawa sampai speed 140km/h. Like seriously?? =.=' Kami tinggal dua hotel berasingan. 1 Sakura Hotel, 1 lagi yang me duduk ni, VL Hatyai Hotel. Cantik. Me suka :) Lepas check in then simpan beg, kami semua pergi makan dekat area hotel jugak. Makan tomyam. Kami singgah hotel Pink Lady, tengok GRO :p HAHA. Tempat tu macam akuarium, setiap GRO ada nombor, Pilih je. :p Ngeh3. Tak cantik sangat la GRO tu, me lagi cantik :p HAHA. Lepas tu pergi lepak dekat 1 bar ni, tengok live band. Diorang main memang best. Melting tengok mamat Thai main drum. Hensem. Ngeh3 :p Lepas tu tepat kul 1.00am, kami semua balik hotel. :)

5/2/2012
Flight pukul 8.30pg, so dalam pukul 6.15 kami dah standby bangun pergi airport. Pukul 7 gerak pergi airport. Flight kul 8.15 pagi. So, tak sempat breakfast. Lapar gila. =.=' Sampai sana nak dekat pukul 11. Kami menginap dekat hotel ni. Hip Hotel Thailand. Check in time pukul 2, so kami semua tak dapat la nak rest dalam bilik. Receptionist tu bagi kami 1 bilik untuk letak beg je.

Me tak tahan panas, nak mandi, tapi memandangkan keadaan toilet yang boleh nampak dari luar, so kena lupakan hasrat tu. haih. Just tukar tshirt & short, then off to Chatuchak Park. I really2 love this place. Sangat murah barang-barang kat sini. Dapat la me beli handbag. weee :p Tapi tempat makan susah nak cari. Me makan nasi putih & ayam goreng. Memang tawakal la makan. Takut la haram. Sebab other stalls ada PIG. haih. Lepas dah berjalan, so dalam pukul 6.00pm kami gerak balik hotel, then pergi massage.

Me try Thai Massage, sumpah sakit at first, lepas tu tukang urut tu tengok muka me dah merah sebab tahan sakit, die pun slow la. Die ingat me orang Vietnam. Sadis betul. =.=' Lepas dah habis berurut, rasa lega gila. Ringan je badan. Malam tu, Kami semua pergi ke Terminal 21 untuk makan malam. Sumpah shopping complex ni cantik gila. :( Kami sempat pergi sini. :p Tengok GRO. Patpong. Sape nak tengok pool dance, boleh la pergi. Sesuai untuk para lelaki yang single2 ni :p HAHA. Lepas tu we all balik hotel! TIDOOOOOOO!

6/2/2012
Wake up at 8-ish, mandi then pergi makan breakfast. Sumpah makanan sedap gila. Chef pun handsome. Sempat la balas2 senyum. ngeh3. :p Gatai! Then we off to Cruising along the Chao Phraya River. Chao Phraya River.Naik bot pusing 1 sungai. Me tak minat sebab me takut air. Rasa nak muntah. Spent almost 2 hours naik benda tu. =.=' Lepas tu shopping!!! Tempat ni wajib pergi. Sangat2222 murah! STRESS! Platinum Mall. Lepas dah hbs berjalan2. Then we off to tempat GAY. Soi Cowboy. Ni untuk girl2 yang desperate nak cari lelaki. Sumpah tempat ni scary. Me kena tarik dengan BAPAK AYAM. Nampak strip dancer , pakai underwear menari2 tiang. ahhh! scaryyy! takut sangat. Lepas dah jalan2, we off back to Hotel. huhu. Ey, siapa nak tengok tiger show, MURAH tau. RM10 je duit Malaysia :p tapi ME tak tengok okay! hehe.

7/2/2012
Wake up at 9-ish, makan breakfast, then pergi airport at 12.00. Our flight at 2.15. So lepak2 & jalan2 dekat. Sangat2 besar. Stress tengok perfume & coklat kat sana!!!! Banyak & murah! Sakit hati!! Hahaha! Flight kali ni takut. Sebab goyang-goyang. Masa nak naik tu, rasa macam kapal terbang tu tak boleh naik dah. SUMPAH SCARY! tapi takpe. Pilot yg bawak tu hensem! hehe. Sampai je sana, kena tahan dengan kastam, sebab die ingat me orang Thailand. Sedih. Me bg die passport & IC untuk check. Haih. Lepas dah amik kereta, we off balik Ipoh. YEAYYY!

I LOVE BANGKOK!!!!!!!

weee!

Much love,

Tira.

homesick

I'm back guys. Esok baru update blog k. Sangat-sangat penat. :(

vacation

AWAYYYY ! 

GOOD BYE MALAYSIA, WELCOME THAILAND!

See you guys another 4 days!

Take care

xoxo

Much love, 

Tira.

result

 Alhamdulliah. The result was okay. No paru - paru berair. :')

Song for today :

Alyah - Kisah Hati

Much love,

Tira.

Redha

Hello all, today nothing much happened. I went for medical check up today. High fever + cough && suspected paru-paru berair. I dont know the result yet. Tomorrow they will give me the result. I got MC today. But i don't wanna go home because I know I can't rest peacefully. I can't do my work because my PC "die" already, & tomorrow the computer technician will send back to me. Hopefully i can get my PC tomorrow because my work will be pending & i really2 dont like pending work. What a GREAT day for me right?? My family dont know about this & I also dont want them to know. Promise me not to tell them k? :)

If yes i got paru-paru berair, I redha je. Bukan tak boleh diselamatkan lagi kan? :)

Song for today :

Much love,

Tira.

kisah dongeng

Lirik Lagu Stacy – Kisah Dongeng

Ku sedar ku tak seberapa
Jika dibanding mereka
Yang jauh lebih megah dari diri ini

Apa yang mampu ku berhias
Hanyalah hati yang ikhlas
Terpendam simpan untuk dia yang sudi

(korus)

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya
Mencintai aku bukan kerana rupa
Dalam waktu sedu
Dalam waktu hiba
Ku harapkan dia rela

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya
Sanggup menerima insan tak sempurna
Atau mungkin cinta sebegitu hanya
Kisah dongeng saja

Belum pernah ku merasakan
Dipeluk dalam dakapan
Eratnya melindungi jiwa rapuh ini

Sanubariku memerlukan

Kehadiran seorang teman
Tulus mencurah kasih sepenuh hati

(ulang korus)

Much love,

Tira.